Blog17(My Passion)

I have many passions, but my most desiring passion would have to be Music! I absolutely love music! It is my life and I don't know what I would do without it! Music is my stress reliever because when I am having a bad day I can play music whether it be classical or pop and I can use that to express my emotions! Also when I feel like that I am failing I know that I will always have my flute and my music to always fall back on! That is my true passion and my desire!!

Blog16(How do stereotypical standards of beauty affect your/society?)

Stereotypical standards affect our society in many ways in which some people would not realize. If somebody sees a person dressed in all black then they assume that they are Gothic and punk rock and are up to no good. Well instead of getting to know this person people just assume. Now this person could be a 14 year old girl who is the sweetest most caring person in the world and would not hurt anybody and is so smart, but nobody will ever no that except for her family because nobody will take the time to know her. Many people look at the outside of people instead of looking inside and learning inner beauty. Our society has lost site of what inner beauty means and it turns the society against one another.

Blog14(English)

You know I love my blog very much because it allows me to vent and say what is on my mind without anyone reading it, well except for my teacher of course. I love English very much not really the grammar part or essay part, but the reading books and analyzing them. But, do you know what I really do not like about English? It is the fact that I dislike the people in my class. I am here to learn something and none of them will shut up long enough for anybody to get a word in. I mean come on why does it have to be like pulling teeth? Just everybody do the homework and read and be quite then things will be just fine. I was sitting in film first block this morning and 2 boys that are in my class (which always get in trouble and can't even learn he has a different seat without the teacher getting on to him) were talking about how they did not read and how they did not do the vocabulary because they hate the class and they sat there and called everybody in that class a retard. Now that makes me very angry!!!! I dislike being in a class with people like that. Then we have girls that can't shut up and one girl that thinks she knows everything that sits in the back. People like this make me so upset!!! I just wish I could have a English class where I could learn something without people complaining and the teachers trying to spend the entire class period trying to get the class quite.

Blog13 (This Week)

I hate when you get used to something for so long and then all of a sudden it changes and you don't really know how to deal with it. That is what is happening to me right now. Though I know that what is about to happen is for the better, but I can't wrap my head around the fact that it is going to happen. I have always been like that though. I can't deal with sudden change. I am one of those people that do not like the fact that things are going to change. He promises me that nothing is going to change between our relationship and that we are going to stay strong, and I believe him and trust him with all my heart, though I am scared. I don't really have any friends anymore. And once he leaves people are going to see a side of me that they have not seen before. Honestly I am the quietest person ever and I am very shy. Until I started dating him I rarely talked, he helped me come out of my shell, but without him here to talk to our have somebody to rely on I will be by myself with no one. I don't want this to happen but I know that it will make things better for our life in the near future.

Blog12(Idea)

You know I was sitting around last night just thinking about alot of stuff. And when I was sitting there I realized that life is like a huge board game. Sometimes you are able to move around freely as you please, but then there are other times that you are stuck, and thrown many obstacles. I hate it sometimes because it seems that no matter what you do it seems that you are always stuck and can get no where in life. But the great thing is once you go through that rough patch life is great and goes good for awhile. To be honest too I have no idea where I am going with this, but it is honestly how I view life.

Blog11(Freewrite to a song)

Today at this point has not been the greatest day. I really dislike this place that I am in. School sometimes can be very overrated. And as I sit here in English Class writing this free-write I find it very hard to be upset or sad because honestly this song is quite funny because it reminds me of how my family is especially about the part talking about clothes. Then again I try to listen but our class is talking. I try to figure out why we can't do anything ever in this class because they never stop talking. School is just ugh! Well the song is now over so I have to stop writing.

Blog9(Family)

OK, so my family and I have not been on the same page for awhile now. My mom and I have gotten closer and everything and we have always been just fine. But my dad and I, now that is a different story. We do not see eye to eye on anything. I always argue my point out and everything, but yet he sits there and tells me that I am blind and do not know what I am talking about. I know that I am young and everything, but I do know how I feel and what I think. He cannot sit there and tell me how I am feeling. I love my dad but he does not understand me. He tells me that he does not want me to make the same mistakes. I know that he doesn't but he and my mom have always taught me that you learn from your decisions in life. I know that he does not like my boyfriend. I wish that he would take the time and sit down and talk to him and try and get to know him,but every time that I ask him to his response is that I do not want to talk to him. Then yesterday, I went home and he was upset because he thought that I was about to take off, but me and Tyler were sitting in the car because I was on the phone and it was warmer. I did not know that I was supposed to bring my brothers home. They never ride with me or if they are going to they tell me. Neither of them told me that they were riding home, so I left one of my brothers caught me while I was in line, but the other one disapperaed after school yesterday so I thought that he was walking, and when I got home my dad was like where is Matthew and I said that I didn't know and that I guessed he was waking, and dad just started going off on how I do not take responsibility for anything and told me to go do what I wanted to. I know that he said something when I walked out the door but I did not hear it. When I got home last night I told mom what had happened and Hunter my brother had heard him say that I needed to get the f#$@ out and yea. So now I don't know what to do. I guess I just need to start saving money for an apartment. I know my mom does not want me to move out while I am in high school, but I can't stand being at home with dad anymore.